personal time

Yess.
its personal time. i want to talk to my Tuhan.Personally

iam sad.iam confuse, iam lost.
the problem isnt only in me, but also all around me.
i want to say I DONT CARE, but i cant!
i keep thinking of it.

Tuhan
help me, i have no clue
i cant lose them, i dont want them to have useless fight
but they all grow up
Why dealing with adult is more difficult than dealing with a kid?

i wanna run
Run so far a away from where iam now
but iam keep thinking of 3 persons
am i too greedy?
yeah, as people and human being i alwys wanna perfect, all i must have.

i hate beeing older
now i always reconsider, rethinking
seems i escape with risk

recently, iam afraid asking to much to You
You always say ok for what i want, what i asked
some of it wasnt good for me, but iam glad i had those experience
but from that experiences, You give me beyond what i need and asked, mostly you give me as exactly as i asked.

But Please...
This time, help me.